Selepas saja interview kat Bangi on 31st Januari, aku trus balik rumah. I was lucky sebab ada Daia yang tolong hantar dan ambik aku. Kalo tak, peningla aku nak cari sendiri tempat tu. Senang je, kalo naik teksi but aku lagi prefer pergi ngan kawan-kawan. Lagipun, ada kawan yang sanggup tolong, jadi buat apa nak susahkan diri kan ?
Disebabkan petang tu sangat bosan, jadi aku terfikir satu idea yang best. Lagipun, Shai kata...bila lagi nak test market kan, ngan imej baru. So, dengan keyakinan dan keazaman yang bersungguh, aku terus mengorak langkah ke Kl Sentral. Tapi, itu bukanla tempat yang ku tuju. Sebaliknya, aku ke Sentral. Tempat apa tu ? Korang carila sendiri. Aku cuma bagi hint, itu adalah tempat untuk merehatkan badan dan juga tempat untuk release tension serta tempat untuk bergembira :)
Ini merupakan trip ke 2 dan trip bersendirian yang pertama. Memang aku tak biasa pergi sorang2. Tapi disebabkan my eagerness, aku beranikan pergi sorang2. Aku berlagak mcm biasa je, bila sampai ke sana. Berlakon macam dah biasa datang. After aku tukar pakaian kepada yang bersesuaian, aku trus berjalan mundar-mandir. Nak tengok apa response the others. Well, i got a good response and sometimes i got winks. Memang a good sign. This new image, gimme some improvement. Now, i feel better and more confident with myself.
FYI, i always hate my figure. I hate this excess fat which i carry, everywhere i go. I hate my hair which give me, some kind of bald look. I always feel inferior with others. Slim and slender with nice toned body and great hair. I tried diet scheme and it didnt work. The hair problem, it is too expensive to try the YUN NAM HAIR CARE since i can spend my money for other important use. Maybe, this early baldness runs in the family. I hope it wont affect me, in this too early age. I am 25 years old. Too early to get bald. I know, sometimes baldness can create a sexy image but that thought never gimme a good impression. But, when Awie (a fren of my mine, with nice long hair and compact powder) said to me, "Habisla ko, Izzu. Ko tidak boleh diselamatkan lagi. Rambut ko sangat teruk. Baik ko botak je. Nampak better...." really pissed me off, at first. But, i try to think positive. Maybe he was right although he said it in sarcasm.
I asked Acai then, (dari dulu lagi, dia suruh aku botak. ko mmg keji), he said that, i shud get rid of the hair and u will look better. "Ada rambut ke, tade rambut ke, sama je". Well, he always be the sarcastic bitch. But, maybe this is the time. Try for the bald style. Could it consider as a style, since there are no hairs attached on the head ? Still afraid tough, so i just shortened my hair and got a crew cut. Wanna see the pics ? Just scroll down to the previous entry.
Here, i am...at Sentral. Amazingly, it works. This crew cut, gimme a high score point. I'm not sure whether to thank them who persuasively persuade me to cut my hair since i dont like that idea but this short hair, gimme a big impact. Way beyond my expectation. I feel like hot stuff there. First time in my life (1st time kat tempat2 mcm Sentral ni la. Sebelum ni, mmg dah hot stuff pun). Well, i dont need to do anything. Just sit back and relax and the others will come after me. How amazing!!!!
Well, masa untuk betul2 test market. I walk around, but more like a parade, i guess....hehehe. Yes, i score a lot of points there. Since, the others look at me and gimme "i-want-to-eat-you" look. Hahaha....masa untuk jual mahal. But, buat apa nak jual mahal. Nanti satu apa pun tak dapat. Macam mana nak bergembira, bertambah tension la nanti. And it is time to pick the right person. This is the part that i like the most. Picking time !!!!
Well, aku perasan ada sorang ni, dari tadi stare kat aku. Tapi, aku buat dunno je. Aku nak tengok lama mana dia nak stare. I noticed, that person follow me....anywhere I go. When, i picked a chair and sit....that person also picked a chair and sit in front of me. That person keep staring at me but aku jual mahal. Hehehe, memang best. I noticed, that person's frens urge that person to come at me and say hi. But, that person was shy. Aku still lagi tunggu untuk dia buat first move but i think, i will be wasting my time. Maybe dia segan dengan kawan-kawan dia. I want to stop this game and go straight to the point. With full of confident, I started the 1st move. Yes, I scored another point coz I know, that person really want me. Without wasting any time, I dragged that person to another corner and start "the ice breaking" session.
"The ice breaking" session led to "Get to know each other better" session. After some other sessions...I just can say, WOW!!!!! Dia memang hebat. Really make my day and really satisfied my needs. Unfortunately, i forgot to ask for that person's number. What a waste. That person, kinda cute tough. Definitely, I have to come again and hoping that I can meet with that person, if I am lucky.
Balik rumah, aku sambung berangan. Rugi, rugi!!!!! Tak mintak no hp. Tido dalam angan-angan.
This week, aku pergi lagi. Betul orang cakap. Dah pergi sekali, sure nak pergi lagi. So, this will be the third trip and I was alone. Better pergi sorang coz u will never terikat dengan agenda-agenda orang lain, kalo pergi beramai-ramai. Ada nak balik awal la, balik lewat la, nak park nick la, nak gi kejap2 la, nak tunjuk muka la dan macam-macam lagi reasons yang memeningkan. Kalo pergi sorang, at least ada freedom sikit. Suka hati ko nak buat apa.
Lepas waktu kerja, memang adalah waktu yang paling sesuai. I went there on Tuesday, 6th February. Yes, just recently. Amazingly, i went there after job interview session. Same as last week. Memang kebetulan. Lagipun, aku sangat penat. Jalan kaki dari lrt bangsar ke bangsar village sbb nak mintak part time kat starbuck kat situ. Itu pun atas cadangan Deja Moss (dia bukan penyanyi). Katanya, kat situ banyak nak guna orang. So, dengan gigihnya...aku ke sana ketika waktu terik mentari. Jam 11 pagi dah mcm jam 1 petang. Panas ya amat. Tapi, sampai skrg, starbuck tu tak call aku pun. Ntah dapat ke tak. Selepas tu, aku gi jalan2 kat new Bangsar Village. Bolehla, but bukan tempat aku untuk hang out. Aku tak suka tempat tu. Sama macam aku tak suka One Utama dan StarHill. Aku rasa kurang selesa.
Petangnya pulak, aku ke Plaza Sentral for interview. Sama jugak, sampai skrg tak call aku lagi. Aku dah cakap nak full time pun, response company tu, lambat jugak. Tak tahu la. Kat mana la rezeki aku ni nak sangkut. Then, aku jalan2 kat KL Sentral dan aku jumpa x-skoolmate aku. Dekat 10 tahun tak jumpa. Dia kata, dia tgh tunggu flight nak balik terengganu. Ada interview kerja kat sana. Dia tengah amik master dan bulan 4 ni, habisla. Once again, aku rasa inferior. Aku, dengan umur 25 tahun ni, baru je grad degree. Tapi, kawan aku yang berumur sebaya, dah nak abis master. Haih...life is so unfair.
Untuk release tension, aku ke Sentral la. Memang sesuai, lepas seharian berjalan kaki ke sana ke mari, memang memerlukan rehat yang secukupnya. Maksud aku, lain dari tido la. Kalo nak tido, baik balik rumah je. Buat apa tido kat Sentral ni. Banyak lagi aktiviti yang menenangkan boleh dibuat. Dengan tema "test market", dengan kompidennya aku menapak ke Sentral. Kali ini, tak perlu dah nak rasa nervous atau nak buat2 berlakon jumpa kawan...aku dengan sendirinya, datang dengan langkah bergaya.
Setelah menukar pakaian and I walk around....well, not more in 5 minutes...i got a wink. Hehehe, happy nyer. Yes, "test market" berjaya. It is time to parade all over the place. Aku rasa, macam aku dah macam over berangan. Tapi, tak kisahla. Bukannya aku nak jadi sombong atau berlagak. Aku cuma nak "test market" dan aku rasa happy ngan response yang aku dapat. Aku tak kacau orang atau pun buat orang sakit hati cuma aku nak gembirakan hati aku sendiri.
I know, that I'm not that good looking or have the body to die for but at least, aku rasa macam aku dihargai dan lebih diterima di sini, compare to other place which offer the same service dan last2, aku makan hati sorang2. Here, aku rasa mcm aku ni hot stuff (berangan lagi). Tak salahkan, puji diri sendiri kan ? Alah, bukan hot stuff pun...cuma rating naik sikit la and people start noticing me. Sebelum ni, ada gak org notice cuma not that overwhelming as now. Now, i feel more confident with this new look. And some of them, did call me sexy and cute. Hahahaha.....am I that cute and sexy ? I dont think, I deserve to get that.
Belum sempat nak parade lama, dah kena grab. Well, I just play along and we did change phone number coz that person ask for my number. After that, we become fren. Hahaha, kelakar pulak rasanya. Aku tak pernah buat kawan ngan orang yang aku jumpa kat sini. Tapi, kalo that person nak berkawan, apa salahnya. I'm more than happy. We did scout together. Describing others and play a pick game. But, if i stuck with that person for the rest of the evening, i will get nothing more than that person only. Only one and it is not sufficient enough. So, I went for another round of parade and that person went separate way.
I spot other person. Kinda cute though and I want to say hi to him. But, that person come here with frens. (That person rite now, is a different person from the 1st that person. Dont be confused). Actually, I prefer others to approach me than I approach them. I still have the shy feeling. Unless, in "desperate mode" I will make the 1st move. I think, luck was on my side that evening and that person notice me and gave me a smile. Damn it!!!! That cute smile make me unstable. No la....just make me nervous and I did smiled back at that person. I keep on watching the tv and I noticed that person, glanced at me several times. Yes, I did it. My charms slipped easily and it attract that person gracefully. Now, time for the next move.
As usual, the "ice breaking" session need to be conducted. This part is really important, in order to know whether that person like me or not. If that person like me, we will proceed with "i-want-to-get-to-know-u-better" session. If that person really like me, there will be follow up session which include "eat and drink together" session and "up and down" session. Well, that person, memang kompem suka aku. So, I dragged that person to a secret place and perform all the session that I mentioned earlier. That person called me, cute and sexy which make me blushed. As a punishment for calling me cute and sexy, I just stared at that person with my round eyes without doing anything. Hahahaha, that person blushed too. That person gave me a cute smile and asked me to stop staring. That person feel uncomfortable but I know, actually...that person kinda like it.
We spent a lot of time at that secret place which irritated others. We dont care coz we got that place, first. Others have to wait until we finished with all the sessions. I really enjoyed my time with that person and that person feel the same way too. This time, I wont make the same mistake. I asked that person name and number. That person did the same thing. I feel a connection with that person but I dont know whether it is for real or just because I had an enjoyable time with that person.
Balik rumah, aku sms dia. Just wanna make sure dia tak lupakan aku. Dia ajak aku ke rumah dia. Well, aku pasti akan datang. I made an arrangement with that person that aku akan ke rumah dia, this saturday and maybe spent a nite there. That person, ok with that idea. I dont want to look like a desperate guy and I dont sms that person after that Tuesday's evening. But, my eagerness overruled my patient. I sms that person last nite. Just saying good nite and told that I miss that person. I worried if I over reacted. But that person replied my sms and gave a warm response. I'm more than happy. Tapi, aku taknak berangan lebih2. Mungkin that person just be nice to me and nothing more than that. I'll keep reminding myself. I dont want to expect anything that will crush my hope later.
Anyway, I cannot wait any longer for this Saturday.