Saturday, June 25, 2005


hi everyone ? how are u today ? i'm okay here...last night, picked up my dad at airport, he just got back from kota kinabalu...he got work there...ala2, pasal hal maktab perguruan ni...aku tak tau sgt...yg aku tau kursus pasal kerja...but that is not the main story.....

the main story is...adik beradik aku dah dpt tawaran ke ipt...but apa yg pelik kan ? semua org dpt...cuma yg menggembirakan is, 3 adik-adik aku, dpt offer ke ipt serentak...huyooo, aku tak taula sama ada ni happy news or bad news...but yg pasti, kopakla ayah aku bulan ni...3 org anak sekali, tak campur aku lagi (nak gak duit belanja, skolar dah kering...hehehe)

adik aku no2, tak dpt mana ipta2...but he still got offer ke University Kuala Lumpur, cawangan Alor Gajah...mean that, he got place at ipts (thank God, not UTP)...adik aku ni dah amik diploma, so nak sambung degree kat situ la...course science computer and bila da ipts ni, sure belanja tu aku taknak komen, sbb aku pun ipts....

the only daughter in family; adik aku no3, dpt masuk UUM...mintak UPSI tapi dpt UUM, course keusahawanan (course apa tu ?)...okla tu, drpd tak dpt langsung...but my mom try her best to make sure that my sister can get in...but i think harapan tipis la..coz too many student yg result much more better than my sis..but its ok least, she got her place at UUM, kalo nak dibandingkan ngan org tak dt offer pun guna result STPM...

the 4th sibling, got an offer from UMS...lagi jauh...oversea tu!!! ahahah...terpaksala dia separate ngan makwe dia...makwe dia dpt UTM je...nak engineering tp dpt course sains (fizik dan elektronik)...okla tu...dekat2...boleh je dpt keja mom just booked the ticket for her and my bro...they have to go there on 2nd bro form matrix...and i think its okla..coz he just, dpt tmpt kat ipta ni...such a release..but UMS dah ckp awal2...bawak RM2000 sbg pendaftaran...byk nye.....

lagi menariknya...semua kena pergi mendaftar on 3rd july...ahahah, macam mana tu ? sorg nak ke sabah, sorg ke melaka dan sorg ke kedah...semuanya hujung2 dad have a plan...muy mom need to go to sabah with my bro...i need to take my sis to kedah and he will go to melaka to register my other bro...semuanya ada, tinggal la my youngest bro, at home alone...he still in his form5 and will be taking SPM this make things more interesting...he had been choosen to participate in PLKN for next year intake...seem one will be at home...only my mom and my dad will be staying at home....

me ? still not finish my study...have to xtend...ahahah, this thing happen becoz of my foolishness...what to do, thing happened i try to struggle in 3 more semester to finish it....then starting to find a job....i have to

i think, this is a blessing from God...all my bros and sis got their place at ipt...maybe my dad have to suffer a lil bit...coz he have 4 childs at university at the same time (i suppose to complete my study this year...huhu) but i think...that what parents are for...this is their responsibility.....and some kind of investment in future...hope that all my bros and sis will success in thir study...coz this is their first step to face the real world...

Tuesday, June 21, 2005


just a reminder...i had already update my photo, u can click the link and see it for urself...cannot upload too many pictures, coz the connection is too slow, u know...dial up only... :P


selepas menonton movie TENTANG DIA, aku terus suka gan theme's song of the film...very touching...and the melody really make me feel sad, spt aku memahami rintihan org yg bercinta...nak dgr lagu tu...carila sendiri...but i will wrote doWn the lyric..really meaningful...


Menatap jalan yang menjauh
Tentukan arah yg ku mau
Tempatkan aku pada satu
Peristiwa yang membuat hati lara

Di dekat engkau aku tenang
Sendu matamu penuh tanya
Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita

Cinta tegarkan hatiku
Tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
Naluriku berkata
Tak ingin terulang lagi
Kehilangan cinta hati
Bagai raga tak bernyawa

Aku junjung petuamu
Cintai dia yang mencintaiku
Hati yang dulu belayar
Kini telah menepi
Bukankah hidup kita
Akhirnya harus bahagia

Biar saja ada
Yang terjadi biar saja terjadi
Bagai manapun hidup
Memang hanya cerita
Cerita tentang meninggalkan dengan ditinggalkan

at this time...aku suka gak ngan lagu Destiny's Child...their 3rd single...form their latest album; Fullfilled...Cater 2 U is a love song that i really like...the lyrics catched my heart and hope that thing will happen to me and i haveenuff time to do all that thing to my beloved one...

Destiny's Child
Cater 2 U

[Verse 1 Beyonce]
Baby I See You Working Hard
I Want To Let You Know I'm Proud,
Let You Know That I Admire What You Do
Don't Know If I Need To Reassure You, My Life Would Be Purposeless Without You (Yeah)
If I Want It (Got It)
When I Ask You (You Provide It)
You Inspire Me To Be Better
You Challenge Me For The Better
Sit Back And Let Me Pour Out My Love Letter

Let Me Help You
Take Off Your Shoes
Untie You Shoestrings
Take Off Your Cufflinks (Yeah)
What You Want To Eat Boo? (Yeah)
Let Me Feed You
Let Me Run Your Bathwater
Whatever You Desire, I'll Aspire
Sing You A Song
Turn My Game On
I'll Brush Your Hair
Help Put Your Do Rag On
Want A Foot Rub? (Yeah)
You Want A Manicure?
Baby I'm Yours I Want To Cater To You Boy

Let Me Cater To You
Cause Baby This Is Your Day
Do Anything For My Man
Baby You Blow Me Away
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want Just Let Me Cater To You
Inspire Me From The Heart,
Can't Nothing Tear Us Apart
You're All That I Want In A Man;
I Put My Life In Your Hands
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want, I Want To Cater To You

[Verse 2 Kelly]
Baby I'm Happy You're Home,
Let Me Hold You In My Arms
I Just Want To Take The Stress Away From You
Making Sure That I'm Doing My Part (Oh)
Boy Is There Something You Need Me To Do (Oh)
If You Want It (I Got It)
Say The Word (I Will Try It)
I Know Whatever I'm Not Fulfilling (Oh)
No Other Woman Is Willing (Oh)
I'm Going To Fulfill Your Mind, Body, And Spirit

I Promise You (Promise You)
I'll Keep Myself Up (Oh)
Remain The Same Chick (Yeah)
You Fell In Love With (Yeah)
I'll Keep It Tight, I'll Keep My Figure Right
I'll Keep My Hair Fixed, Keep Rocking The Hottest Outfits
When You Come Home Late Tap Me On My Shoulder, I'll Roll Over
Baby I Heard You, I'm Here To Serve You (I'm Lovin It, I'm Lovin It)
If It's Love You Need, To Give It Is My Joy
All I Want To Do, Is Cater To You Boy


[Bridge Michelle]
I Want To Give You My Breath, My Strength, My Will To Be Here
That's The Least I Can Do,
Let Me Cater To You
Through The Good (Good)
The Bad (Through The Bad)
The Ups And Downs (Ups And Downs)
I'll Still Be Here For You
Let Me Cater To You
Cause You're Beautiful (You're Beautiful)
I Love The Way You Are (You Are)
Fulfill Your Every Desire (Desire)
Your Wish Is My Command (Command)
I Want To Cater To My Man
Your Heart (Your Heart)
So Pure Your Love Shines Through(Shines Through)
The Darkness We'll Get Through (So Much)
So Much Of Me Is You (Is You)
I Want To Cater To My Man

[Chorus Out]

skrg ni, aku dgr 2 lagu ni...berulang2, dr pagi sampai ke petang...dr petang sampai ke malam dan dr mlm sampailah pagi esknya pulak....mmg best la lagu ni...dgr lagu ni, mulalah aku berangan2... :P bestnya kalo ada someone yg truly, deeply and reall love me...cannot wait for that moment...i will not stop to search for it


yesterday, i watched 5 movies, non-stop...and rite now, i think, Tentang Dia is the best movie among others....Tentang Dia is a movie from Indonesia...i like the movie...although, stereotype issue had been raised in the movie but it had been nicely elabotared....i think this movie is different from other lovey dovey movie becoz it has its own strentgh and played with the emotion of the characters....

love is the main subject of this movie...Gadis who had lost her faith in love when her boyfriend betrayed their love by having affair with her best friend. Randu, who really like Gadis tried his best to win Gadis's heart but Gadis just cold towards him. He tried everything he could, to cheer up Gadis but nothing could change Gadis, until, one day, Gadis accidentally met Rudi, and everything changed. Rudi treat her right and she feel safe and happier when Rudi besides her. Rudi always comfort her, make her smile and protect her form anyone who want to harm or hurt her heart anymore...Gadis fell in love with Rudi but Rudi is not a lesbian coz she only accept Gadis as her own sister (if Rudi a lesbian, i think..she will accept Gadis, as her lover) Gadis feel depressed coz she feel like she had been nite, Rudi involved in accident and the truth is revealed and Gadis know that her heart only belongs to Randu.

So emotional, i feel like crying...especially at the last scene of the movie...jika sudah berputus asa dengan cinta, kekeliruan akan berlaku tanpa kita sedari...salah memilih insan yang patut ditaburkan cinta...human is a creature that full of desperation, full of confusion, full of emotion that they; themselves cannot understand what they really want...but desperation will lead to a success in is a very complicated feeling.

why we have to let the past keep on lingering in our live...especially the sad ones ? aku sendiri tak paham. but, mmg betul, sekali terluka dalam cinta, pasti susah untuk mencari penawarnya (ayat ini hanya utk mereka yg percayakan cinta). cinta itu mistik, misteri dan juga berbahaya....hanya mereka yang sanggup memperjudikan hidup dengan cinta, mampu untuk mengharungi dugaan cinta tetapi, bila sudah di alam cinta, semuanya pasti indah belaka....

well, aku pernah berada di alam cinta...its so sweet and tender...but cinta itu tidak kekal....tidak mungkin kekal...saat itu, aku akan rasakan aku adalah insan yang paling malang di dunia kerana gagal dalam bercinta...semua hanyala tipu belaka...i cried and cried and keep on thinking; what i've done ? why i have to deserve this ? i'm so loyal and honest and believe in love but u just said that u dont love me anymore, u dont believe in our love...kau tidak tahu, betapa kecewanya aku ketika itu....but i just smile and pretend that nothing happened...u know, deep in my heart...i cried so loud coz it really hurt...i dont understand and i dont want to understand anything coz there is nothing to understand....

as time goes by, aku makin dapat terima hakikat...aku tidak lagi menyalahkan dia, tidak sama sekali bahkan aku berterima kasih kerana dia telah memberikan aku peluang untuk merasai berapa manisnya cinta...tanpanya, mungkin aku buta tentang cinta dan tidak mengerti apakah maksudnya cinta....memori aku dan dia...tetap kusemat kemas dalam ingatanku...bagiku, itula satu satunya hartaku yang paling berharga....tiada galang gantinya...mungkin jodohku tidak panjang dengannya...terlalu mentah untuk menilai sesuatu yang berharga...terlalu muda untuk mengerti erti cinta...kabur dalam pengertian cinta itu sendiri...namun kuhargai apa yang telah dia lakukan, aku hargai segala perasaannya terhadapku dulu...paling tidak, hatinya pernah singgah di hatiku dan membahagiakanku...aku tetap tidak akan melupakanmu walau apa pun yang terjadi, walau hati ini telah dimilikki oleh insan lain kerana engkaulah yang pertama membawa ku ke dunia cinta...

mungkin orang akan kata aku bodoh kerana percayakan cinta namun bagiku cintalah yang menyebabkan aku bahagia...i still believe in love and know that the right person will love me and care for me...mungkin cinta ini tidak kekal namun aku tidak peduli...akan aku usahakan sedaya upayaku untuk membolehkannya bertahan...selama yang mungkin...

Wednesday, June 15, 2005


my dad, mum and i went to the airport...about 10am....we arrived there almost 11am... after check in the ticket...we just sat on the bench, waiting for an announcement for boarding...the flight is at 1145am, but the boarding is at 30 minutes dad, read the newspaper while my mum adn i, talkin to each other...nah, its time for boarding...well, dad good bye....have fun with ur meeting at kl...its not me or my mum who were going but it was my dad...he had to go there for his meeting that going to be held at putrajaya....have fun, dad!!

i bought myself some chocolates...i really love chocolates but at the airport, the chocolates were very expensive, i spent RM20 for only 20 gram of it...i dont care...coz i love chocolate very much

Monday, June 13, 2005


yesterday, my mom and i went to the EON centre, kota bharu branch to take a look at brand new car from proton, proton savvy...actually my father asked my mom and i to make a second survey, which he already done that 2 days ago....the car is very beautiful, classy and sporty...i really like it...but this car is not for me...its the 2nd car for our family since my brother had involved in an accident and the nissan, is in a condition that cannot be used again unless the car is repaired. the spare part which had already ordered still not arrived and have to wait for soo, my dad, really need 2nd car, and he gonna buy this savvy....

so, after my mom and i have a look around....and she agreed to book this car 1st...for booking, we have to pay RM500...and my mom paid fr the car...and today , we gonna go there once again to settle down everything....from down payment up to the loan....i'm very happy...although the car is not belong to least, our family has a new car....

but my dad said that, if anyone wanna that car, the person shud continue to pay the car coz my dad choose 9 years paybcak plan...and my dad gonna be retire in 5 years from mom said that phrase to i think that's a hint for me that the car gonna belong to me (i hope so) but, rite now....i'm still studying...have 3 more semester...hope i can get a job witrh goog salary to pay this car....cannot wait to complete my study , get a job and have car...


spent 3 days at kampung...kampung serom3, muar, johor...speant almost a day in the, i'm here, back again at my house, in kota bhrau bored bila balik kampung kat johor...kampung ni, sblh mak aku...nenek aku tu dah la kuat membebel and bila bercakap je...sure satu umah leh dengar...kuat tak kuat nye dia berckp...nak tido siang pun sbb mak aku nak balik jugak, dan aku pun tade apa nak buat kat umah ni, aku ikutla mak aku balik jugak sbb masa nila, aku leh mintak mcm2 ngan ayah aku...ayah aku kalo drive balik kampung...suka berenti2 minum...byk kali pulak tu...apa lagi, masa ni la nak pau ayah aku...mintak belanja best, kdg2 ayah aku plak offer masa aku sbb org dah offer, trus aku ckp nak...

1st stop kat setiu, ayah aku ikut jalan pantai...sure la byk org jual keropok lekor dan segala mala mcm barang2 kering....spt ikan, sotong, dan mcm2 lagi yg dikeringkan...dah ayah aku berenti kat satu kedai ni, dan aku apa lagi, trus order sotong goreng tepung, aku amik yg plg besar...sedapnya....ingat nak mkn 10 ekpr, tp rs cam melampau la aku berwasatiah, mkn sekor je....dan begitulah strusnya, asal ayah aku berenti utk minum, atau rehat...aku sure berenti utk melantak...ahahahah...

mula2 cadang nak dok dlm 4 sbb nak settlekan permohonan adik aku ke UPSI, kenala balik balik ok gak, sbb aku bosan gila kat kampung, tade tv, radio atau pun komputer(nenek aku tak reti pun psl komputer)...semua radio ngan tv ada dlm bilik dia...aku mls nak tgk kat bilik tak best plak...anyay, dah balik umah sendiri...home sweet home

Monday, June 06, 2005


rite this holiday mood...its getting bored when u doin nothing other than sleeping and eating. this time, no part time job for me coz i'm so lazy to wake up early and go to work....anyway, just woke up and having my the mean mother having her lunch already....ahahah....i love sleeping coz it make me feel calm and free....

so i have to do something...why dont i switch oln my computer and watch some movies...anyway...i already finished watching an anime series...its title is MAI HIME....its about 12 ladies who have power that can save the world from being demolished by evil power (as usual, stereotype anime but i love it, coz they have girls who have magical power)...they fight with monsters with thier magical powers and also with their magical weapons...and they have their own guardian angels that help them during the fight...unfortunately, there is one HIME (means princess in english) that become evil and want to kill other HIME in order to gain more usual, Mai HIME, the strongest HIME defeated her....there is a twist in the anime...actually, there is one male HIME...this is the real evil....all the HIME must fight with themselves in order to find the most powerful HIME, who is going to be the wife of the male HIME...this anime really make me feel sad coz when each of the HIME was defeated...the person that is very closed to the HIME (in other words, the loved one) will well as the guardian last, only Mai HIME left behind....but she didnt want to be the wife so she got into a battle wih her "future husband"....well, the good will win and this is the conclusion of this must it...coz this anime is very interesting and full with emotion and sadness and also confusion about love...

not only that...i also spent my time watching new series; LOST. very adventuruos and thriller series....sadly i dont have the last eps of the series coz, i come home too early and didnt have time to download the eps in the network....sometimes, this series make me scared and sometimes make me wonder, who is the real villain ? what really happened in last 16 years ? is there really a monster on the island ? cannot wait to watch the last eps....but i'm sure this series will have its 2nd season....sigh

right now, i'm watching a new series; NUMBERS....its like CSI series but all the problems or case need to solve by mathematical method...quite interesting series although sometimes i get a headache with all the equations (u know, mathematic is not my favourite subject)....but u will surprised how they predict human behaviour by using math, although sometimes the prediction is wrong (yeah, human is unpredictable) but it quite doing math, they can capture the murderer, they can predict where will be the next targer for bank robbery and who is the next victim...very genius....i never realize that by doing some math problem u can catch a criminal....

after i finish this series...i'm going to watch THE O.C, 2nd season...after that...i will open some notes and book to start my very own study during this holiday season :P

Saturday, June 04, 2005


it really great to come back home...well, just woke up this morning and as usual, i woke up late...yeah, nothing to worry coz no class, no tutorial and no assignment to think about...its holiday man!!! and i'm happy to be at home...almost 6 months i'm in UTP and since that time..not a single day i went back home...rite now, i'm at home in my very own room!!! i love my room, my locker and obviously my bed...queen size bed...

just now, my youngest brother and i went to the backyard to have some u want to know what is it ? both of us, eating longan under the longan tree...yes, mmg ada pokok longan kat belakang umah ni...and pokok tu, betul2 belakang bilik aku...this is the 1st time, pokok tu berbuah...i have waited for a very long time for this...the seller said this tree going to bear fruits only in three month but yet we have to wait almost five years to make it happen...i am so happy and i cannot wait anymore...i asked my brother to bring the ladder to get the longans...well, pokok ni tadela tinggi sangat ada je buah kat dahan2 yg rendah2...tapi mana buah yg masak, dah di makan dulu...dah tade buah yg masak kat dahan yg we have to climb up to get the ripe on....

its so juicy....i love it...i think..we both like squirrels...eating the fruits on the tree...well, is worth to the patience is paid off....i can see the tree from my window...its so green and yet the longans so delicious and juicy...when i feel like eating, i just go under the tree and mula la petik buah2 tu dan makan tanpa henti sampaila dah rasa puas....

now, i'm waiting for the duku tree to bear its fruits....for the mango tree and pomelo tree...i have to say sorry...coz i had enuff of you....dah puas dah makan mangga ngan limau bali...lepas ni la plak...forget to say...rambutan pun tgh berbuah...tunggu masa je nak masak....its so lovely...

bila dah kerja nanti, aku nak beli satu rumah yg ada halaman luas, bolehla tanam pokok buah...and eating the fruit with my have a picnic under a tree...but who is the wife ? (wife ?!!! it scare me when thinking about a i need a wife to have children ? )


well, someone comment about my blog....yes, i accept that comment..."the ditzy gal's blog" i appreciate that comment...although its sound negative comment for me but at least they read my blog or at least they can my blog,view(scroll up till down) and they close the window....yeay!! one more person has come to my world...

i dont care wut people say about me or my blog....coz i know...this is me and i done this only for fun, to enjoy myself, to share my feelings and thoughts in my very own blog....maybe, my blog is quite boring (is it quite ?) but at least i'm writing something in my blog...right now, nothing interesting happen in my life, so i have nothing to write about...just the same old day, and it keep on repeating itself coz this is my cycle of life....i mean, right now la...

i promise, when something great or disaster things happen to me, i'll write it i can share it with you but its not my point of concern coz i wanna satisfy myself so i write it down when i think i have to....but i try to do my best to make my blog more interesting...

i dont feel sad or angry with the comments...just wanna say whatever i do, i do it for myself and i want to satisfy myself...other than that, its not my concern...(am i wrote down the right thing ? i think i really care what people think about just my nature... :P)

Thursday, June 02, 2005


yes...skrg dah cuti.....anyway aku dah ada kat umah almost seminggu dah....patutnya, minggu ni last, exam tp paper aku abis, aku balik awal la...lagipun tade duit aku nak dok lama2 kat utp tu....dok umah ni, mkn free, umah free...letrik free, bukan free atually, bapak aku bayar la...heheheh

minggu pertama aku ok umah n i...diabiskan ngan makan, tido, tgk movie dan series kat kom ngan baca magazine...adalah sekali sekala aku tolong mak aku berkebun kat blkg umah ni...siram pokok bunga, cuci tiang2 umah, basuh pinggan, tolong masak sikit2....tu jela...aku nak kuar ke kota bharu pun mls...dok memerap je dlm be accurate, dlm bilik aku nak ke mana2....dok umah lagi best...lepak2, baring2....cuma ari ni aku rajin sikit nak update blog aku, aku guna la kom ayah aku ni..

mulai minggu depan, aku mulakan cuti semester aku ngan lebih efektif lagi...aku nak study bersungguh2...4 subjek sem aku dah amik major, aku nak study math vector calculus...eis (engineers in society), ngan 2 subjek petroleum...harap2 next sem leh score la...

nak gi mandi plak, tgh hari ni...panas la...


YEAY!!! Carrie Underwood won the expected...she never been in he bottom 3 and she always performed well and she deserved to be the next American Idol. well, the girl is songs really her element and with the genre, she become the American Idol....i think its too late for me say this but congratulation Carrie.... i love u so much and definitely, i'll buy ur album...