Thursday, January 26, 2006


hi, lama tak update....bukan sibuk tp, disebabkan hari ni tade buat, aku merajinkan diri utk menaip omongan kosong di blog aku ni...

well, isnin lepas, 23 jan 06 aku pergi kursus NPSP... NPSP stand for NIOSH Petronas Safety Passport. maksud NIOSH tu korg cr sendiri la...buat kat hotel promenade di kota kinabalu ni...satu hari kursus tu...dan ada 4 course..pening gakla aku dgr dia mengajar tp bendanya sng, no problem la...part yg plg best, obviously is part makan...sgt best buffet lunch hotel promenade ni, seafood!!! aku melantak udang ngan oyster sampai berpinggan2..aku tak mkn nasi pun, makan lauk je...hehehe, bukan sng nak makan udang yg besar dan oyster dgn byk2 tanpa perlu pikirkan psl harga...untung betul supervisor aku antar aku amik course ni...tak sia2

end of the day, ada test...nak uji kepahaman ko, sama ada paham tak apa yg dia ajar...yelah hal2 safety ni mana leh first kan, prevention is better than cure, rite ? the test is not that difficult, very direct forward and if u read the handout, i'm sure u can score 100% but the result can be announce only after 3 working days...lamanya...suppose ari ni dah tau diam je, harap2 score la test tu...takyah nak retest.

form tuesday until one in our dept. only me and meimoan (trainee student from utp too)...feel like heaven. got nothing to do...i completed all of my works and now its fun time...logge into ym and chat for one whole day, and of coz download some yaoi mangas, i love that manga....really make me happy and gimme warm feeling...yelah, sure syok kalo berangan kan ? skrg ni pun, still tade org..happy sungguh. suppose we're going to vistit sabah gas terminal but unfortunately, kak linda take emergency leave coz her got sick, the visit is postpone to tomorrow. so, one more day doing nothing :P

u know, i just bought my very own digicam. not really bought it yet but i booked the camera and have to pay $50 for down payment...the digicam can be claimed after chinese new year becoz they're still waiting for new stock to arrive...its been a long time, hoping for my very own digicam and now my dream come true...habislah elaun aku next month, the price is $500 as well as my, nexct month makan batu la jawabnya....mujurla ada fama..haih, rugi tak beli sbb tu offer and that camera is the cheapest (not really the cheapest coz there is another yg cheapest but with least function), next month taklehnak clubbing, no movies, no karaoke and no magazines, sigh...what a boring life...but its worh it least, i can take pictures when i'm still in sabah, tak tahu bila akan dtg ke sini, i dont want to miss this chance :)

Wednesday, January 18, 2006


Hi all!! 10 more minutes before the working hours end. All the tasks that were given by my supervisor have been completed. I feel very happy coz I can finish it earlier, before the due date. Now, its time for me to relax and surf the internet. Hehehe…Now its time to read someone blogs.

But there is one thing that I don’t understand. What is the value friendship ? I’m not the expert to talk bout this but at least I can give opinion bout that, rite ? I love making friends and I love to have more & more friends. Although, I’m a quite shy (sometimes org kata aku sombong) to someone new but I try my best to fit in. It such a waste if you have so many people around you but u cant make them your friend even a single one of them…what a pity, I think. But sometimes, friends make me sad when they don’t value the friendship and don’t even bother to make it valuable…They treat friends like shit but amazingly I still can be friend with them. Why ? Coz I try to fit in and try to accept them as the way they are. This time, I wanna say; pity to me. Always get hurt just to please everyone but its ok, I think. Its my nature and I cant change it even though I try.

For example, Husam (sorry to mention ur name here). I know him since my 1st year in university and we become quite close friend. Have fun together with our circle of friends and everything is always a cheerful time but it doesn’t mean that the sky is always bright (lucu je bunyinya ayat ni). Sometimes, we fight (tarik2 rambut, jerit2 di kedai makan) but after that, everything goes back to normal (of coz there will be a time break to cool down). And in my 4th year, we have a big fight and as a result Husam was outcast from the group. This happened because of one incident and I don’t want to mention that. As long as I remember, I’m not the one who initiated the fight but just back up my friends coz that time I think Husam is totally on the guilty side. As time goes by, in my final year we become friend again although at first I still worry that he would repeat the same mistake. I give him a chance to convince me and I think he is different than before although maybe some of the same old attitude are there (sorry, to be judgmental…I cannot help’s worry actually). As a result we become a good friend once again and having fun time together before I come to Sabah for my internship. He gimme a call yesterday and we chat. (although he just wanna ask Kema’s phone number actually, hmph)

Until now, I keep on thinking, did I make mistake ? Am I the bad one to outcast him from the group ? Am I make wrong action to back up my other friends without rationalized thinking ? Am I the one who don’t value friendship ? Am I the one who cannot be good friend ? All this questions keep on filling my head. Maybe at that times, the anger conquered all my rationalized thinking and made decision that gave bad impact to everyone. When I think deeply, it was not only Husam’s fault. I’m guilty too. I keep on thinking and thinking, what if that incident happen to me ? What action I will take ? What consequences that I may face ? I think more than 50%, I will do the same thing as what Husam did.

I know not everyone understand what I’m talking about but this thing keeps messing up my mind. Lebih2 lagi…some of my friend have perang dingin with each other…and cause chaos the group (I still considered it as agroup since I meet all of them at UTP). I don’t know what happen and what’s going on now…everyone seemed different and everyone cannot tolerate with each other and try not understand and resolve the problems. And its not fun anymore coz everyone choose side and hatred build up in each other heart. Maybe I’m the only who think and feel like this, but it make me sad coz we’re not the same as before. I know, everyone have to move on but do we need to ruin the friendship. Becoz of that, I don’t want to choose side. Maybe my heart is to gentle and maybe coz I learn from my experience or maybe coz I’m getting older that make me freak out to loose something that already in my hand. Its really hurt for me to watch the friendship being tear apart but what I can say if that’s the only way that can solve the problem…. Egoistic is the main problem that need to be encountered. Better ask for forgiveness and think what is the real problem and try to have the most reasonable solution. Maybe after this, anyone will hate me becoz of my statement for today but I have to speak up what I feel and I love all my friends. ( I hate to feel like a mother). I still remember that time when we still in UTP; all of us want to have a big reunion (tunggu la lps aku grad…haih), and have fun together….but I think maybe that just tinggal kenangan…and if there is a reunion, tak cukup korum.

Dah lambat nak ke gym…later.


My birthday is on 18th July 1982

Kamu mahu tahu personaliti kamu dan juga teman-teman? Apa kata kamu semak tarikh lahir dan haiwan yang menjadi penaung kamu....

Julai 16-26 ~ Merpati

Kamu adalah simbol sikap yang sentiasa riang. Apa saja yang kamu lakukan, kamu akan enjoy setiap detiknya. Kahadiran kamu menjadikan teman-teman serta orang sekeliling begitu riang dan senang dengan sikap kamu. Kamu adalah ketua di dalam kumpulan teman-teman dan bijak memujuk dan menghiburkan hati orang yang sedang gundah-gulana. Hipokrasi adalah sifat yang paling kamu benci dan orang yang sebegini memang kamu tolak tepi. Di dalam pekerjaan, kamu memang teratur dan sistematik. Namun, awas! Kamu mudah jatuh cinta!

p/s: mcm betul je...

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Personality Based On Birthday. Is It True?

My birthday is on 18th July 1982

If you were born on the 9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are....

You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally.You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will think its still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there! Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are humanitarian, patient,
very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model for everyone.

Your best match are :

1)Born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month :

You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you would
always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are not a cool person. Its not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you are
comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and problems but they wont be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom, creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!!

2)If you were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month :

Ooopppss.. you were born to enjoy! You dont care about others. I mean you always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think
are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But if you are a men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this worlds wounds to make peace for everyone because you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step further.

3)If you were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month :

No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a businessperson. You are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad vision. You make a well-balanced person.

Monday, January 16, 2006


HI, all...what a nice day...its very hot and sunny day...but its too i prefer stay inside this building and dont want to go outside...inside is more cooler, besides...i can surf internet for free...hehhee, boss tade so apa lagi...chatting kat ym la

in this free time, i browse thru some of m friends' blogs....its been a long time since i checked their many posts that i missed and it took me half a day to read all of them...some posts that are very interesting and some just merepek (sama cam blog aku ni...hehehe) and some with their sad story...anyway, i love to browse thru zalina, apau and aritha nyer blogs coz they put pictures to tell their stories...dan buatkan aku rasa mcm aku pun ada kat situ, join aktiviti diorg...although jauh but still i can feel the fun. so, i have to buy digicam for my own...aku dah jumpa one digicam, brand ben-q, murah jugakla, $400...affordable i thing tp kena ikat perutla lps ni...hehehe. dah lama aku nak digicam ni....cuma tak kesampaian hajat, lagipun harga mahal, i prefer to wait for the price going down and i'll definitely buy more thing is, i dont like to borrow someone's stuff, better to have my own...i love taking pictures coz pictures tell thousand stories, rite...with pictures, i can recall back my memories with all my beloved family and friends

last saturday nite, i browsed thru my photo gallery in my pc...i love to look at the pictures,tgk byk kali pun xpe...when i was browsing picture at ulu chepor(gambar ramai2 posse atas batu)...someone is calling me...and you know who...its chom!!! masa tu aku pun tgh tgk gambar chom dan actually, chom pun tgh tgk gambar2 kitorg having fun masa kat utp...then, he gave me a call. at that time, i was thinking to sms chom but he called me seemed like two people doing the same thing, thinking the same thing on the same time only at different places. i'm glad to have chom as my fren and i'll always remember him and i'm more than happy to know that chom also remember me to :)

but i regret that, i dont remember me daia birthday...and i dont even wish him...he called me last week, and remind me bout his birthday...i have no choice but to say HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY...sorry daia, i really dont remember the day...and sorry to acai coz i dont remember his too...and he also gimme a call and remind me...i'm so sorry guys, rite now...byk sgt benda aku pikir, about my life, about my future, about where i'm gonna be in next 5 years, 10 years....about my family and of coz about my study(i hate to say about study)...kdg2, aku lupa benda2 penting yg lain...things yg tak sepatutnya dilupakan....i try to be more concern about this thing and not think too much bout life...

from now on, i dont want to rite about envy, inferior, jelaousy or wut so ever negative thinking in my blog....i just want to write happy things that happened in my life...betul kata acai, "THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS PERFECT SITUATION FOR EVERYBODY. WE JUST HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT. LIFE IS ALL ABOUT MOVING ON TO THE NEXT STEP AND LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST SO THAT WE WONT REGRET IT LATER"...rite now, i just want to enjoy my time here, as a trainee in PCSB-SBO before going back to UTP and finish my last sem...although things doesnt happen as what i planned but that is the challenge i must face through....always think positive and dont be too judgmental to happy and enjoy the life to the fullest!!

gonna continue my work now...byk lagi kerja tak siap :P

Thursday, January 12, 2006


hi, wassup...long time no see....its kinda buzy nowadays and dont have much time to go to cyber cafe and write some craps in my blog.

well, nothing much to say today. in this internship period, i feel very happy coz i dont need to think about tests, tutorial, assignments and also exams...just go to work, punch the card before 730am and go back home when its 430pm....and this is the routine for one whole sem...yeah, the internship is cool but rite now nothing much to do and i feel so damn bored...lucky me, today i have one meeting to least i have something to do than just sitting on my cozy chair...the meeting is about HSE planning for 2006, the meeting going well although byk benda yg aku tak phm and need to learn more bout that...i keep that in my mind

just now, baru je browse thru some of my friends' profiles kat freiendster...some of them have change a lot in past 5 years after school...have great job, beautiful girlfriend, handsome boyfriend..get married and have a child already...what a big surprise for me.....for 5 years, so many things happen feel soooo left out...but itulah kehidupan...

sometimes, aku rs envy ngan diorg...semuanya mcm berlaku seperti apa yg diorg nak, seperti apa yg diorg rancang...and things run smoothly...for me, langit tidak selalunya cerah...ada je something yg menghalang dan sometimes gimme burden and problems...that i cant get what i want...i'm soo envy and jealous...bilala masanya utk aku pulak ?

inferior is one thing...watching them succeed and get nice job make me i able to be like is so sad

Sunday, January 01, 2006



well, sgt seronok celebrate new year kat kk ni....aku dan syai ngan di escort sorg staff pertonas (namanya azwan muka iras2 lorea), dan sha serta amrain (cousin si azwan ni) dgn clubbing....its been a long time....tidak ke clubbing....n this is the first club yg aku pergi, The Beach.... cover charge pun mahal...biasala new year, RM50 tu...terbang camtu je duit straight...well, i'm enjoying myself...sgt beza ngan bb atau velvet, different sgt....crowd pun happening cuma lagu2 dia lebih banyak techno la...biasala club port cina....dahla ada sorg mamat cando....rugi tak tackle, aku perasan dia cam nak tegur aku, nak kenal2 la tu...dr jauh...dtg menari sblh aku....mmg dah laga2 bahu...siap senyum2 lg, tp aku buat2 tak perasan je ntahla...aku tak kompiden...aku rs mesti dia tgk org lain...yelah, aku bkn nye menarik...just biasa2 je, bdn pun tak cantik, rupa lite2...jd tadela aku xpect, aku just tunggu dia, aku rs dia pun tunggu aku approach dia dulu...aku ni dahla segan....last2, abis camtu, aku yg kempunan...takpela tade rezeki...lagipun tujuan aku nak enjoy je, bukan nak flirt ngan sapa2.... :P

tadi baru lepak kat kg air, di taman area mahkamah negeri...port gabas cikcur...
meriah jugakla, dan sempatla berkenalan ngan "org2" kat sana...kenal ngan abby dan din...nice knowing u....dan baru aku tau, kat kk ni pun ada club gabas, Q Bar namanya...nampaknya Chinese New Year harus pergi ke sana...hehehe....