Nothing interesting happened to me lately. It seemed like, one door already closed for me. I guess i need to find another door for me. It's so sad. Things doesnt turn out to be, what i expected. Everything seemed rough on me. Maybe GOD want me, to learn and experience the hard way. I already went through the easy way during my childhood and my teenage time.
As time goes by, i got older year by year. Its feel like, i running out of luck. Every single thing, doesnt feel right. Rite now, I'm 25 years old. Already an adult. But, this phase of life that i going through rite now doesnt seem to be fair. Why, do i have to face all these hardship ? Why me ? Why luck, doesnt knock my door once again ?
I think, i got punished. Punished for every sin that i have done. I enjoyed my life too much and forgot other things that really important which is going to shape my life in the future. Yeah, it is too late to feel sorry. Nothing can be done to reverse the time. Well, just face it and accept that i'm a loser.
It's feel like, i have to start my life from zero. My real life need to be start from scratch. Altho, i dont want to admit it but I know...deep in my heart, i need to face the truth. Things not going to be easy on me. A friend told me a story about my other friend. He had to face many obstacles before he can get the miracle.
Yeah, miracle did happen but we have to wait for it. Wait for the rite moment for miracle to happen and spread its magic dust on us. But, miracle can reach to us sooner than we expect if we put along hardwork, patient and never give up. Really interesting story....
Now, the history is repeating itself. Instead of my other friend, it is me who going through the same script. It is not worth to shed a tear. I didnt cry. Just felt a little bit dissappointed. Maybe my luck has run away and waiting for me to catch them. My luck is not there. Not in that place. Maybe it flies over the ocean, crossing other countries. I did think about it.
What is this ? It is not the end of the world yet. Just blurry vision, narrower paths, confused decision and unsure steps. Still got time to fix it. There are bunches of fruits in a tree. If the first pluck is far from satisfaction, just pluck another one. If the second pluck is still far from satisfaction, just pick another pluck. Keep on plucking until it come across the best bunch. From now on, I need to keep on watering this farm until it bears the most tastiest and sweetest fruit.
p/s : my english is not perfect. just wanna express my feeling.